Holy smokes! I have been on a bit of a hiatus! My sincere apologies to you.
Here is the deal. In all honesty, I have tried to sit down multiple times and write a witty or smart piece of work that could tie into this unplanned absence from the virtual world. But the reality is, I got nothing.
Life just took over…
Yes, life. I began working part-time from home. That required hours at the computer, hours sitting, and hours focused elsewhere than on my husband and children. I am thankful for this opportunity and love what I am doing. But, I realized, as I was directing these hours at a computer, sitting… away from family… when it was done, I didn’t want to do more of that to get caught up on blogging. I wanted to stand up, breath in fresh air, and connect with my kids.
So I guess you could say that not only was this hiatus unplanned, I was very unprepared.
Please be patient with me as I learn how to balance it all.
In truth, I think it is beneficial to have experiences like these. It is good to understand what it feels like to not be able to balance it all. That day you wake up and your priorities have shifted, and everything seems a little out of whack, and you don’t know how to handle it – so you just have to give it your best shot. And sometimes that means falling short. I am learning to let go a bit, and be okay with what needs to go to the wayside, while I am attentive to what matters most.
At first I felt very guilty. So, while I processed this sense of guilt for not keeping up on my blogging… it did not distract from the over arching sense that it was straight up okay if I just didn’t. I knew that deep down in there somewhere, that what is important to me, will remain.
I have learned soooo much on blogging this year… and I am still standing on the very tippy-top of the iceberg. There is so much to it and one thing that I have learned is that blogging is a full-time job and then some, if you expect to be legit. I wish there was another name for it… “blogging”… the word sounds so casual… in the sense that if you don’t have a degree, you can’t be taken seriously. Which is a load of crap. From my friends who blog professionally and all of the amazing women I have met and connected with in the blogging world, I have seen first hand how hard they work their tails off to be excellent at what they do. There are so many layers to this virtual world. I won’t go into the details now, I’m just saying it’s not as simple as throwing some words up on the screen and calling it a day. I have an incredible amount of respect for people who make a career blogging.
So anyhow, I am making the choice to give myself some grace. Grace to be okay with not knowing how to balance it all. And that’s cool. There is something stirring inside. I can always tell when I feel peace around something. It means I’ve grown, or change has taken place. God is trying to teach me something and I finally got it.
I will be back more regularly soon. When? I don’t know if I have the answer now. But I do believe it will come to be.
I hope you will still be here and be interested!
Until next time…